my austin

well today he had his 2nd set of shots he had to get 4......he cried a hell of a lot more this time then the last and it was harder on me this time as well......i felt soooo bad but hes gotta get them....and he now is 17lbs 8oz and he is now 27 and a half inches tall.....he has grown SOOOOO much its crazy seems like yesterday that he was 8lbs 10oz and 21.5inches when i had him......and doctor said he looks great and is getting along fine and is ahead of most 4month olds.....soooo maybe he will be a smart kid after all.lol hed have to get that from his father....hmmmmm another trait from daddy.....damnit where am i at in this kid....lol owell i love him no matter what!!! just thought id update on my lil man

im feeling great about myself

well as a few of u know i have been doing better now....i feel great and am actually finding that happiness again that i once lost....i got my hair cut and i think that helped alot to....call me crazy but i feel pretty now lol i have more confidence than i normally do and i am getting better at it also and i am loving life right now....i have select few friends that i am very happy i have in my life felicia, miranda, misty(my sister).......i have lost a few also bcuz they didnt want me to move or be happy in life and just wanted me to stay depressed in life with them and i chose not to do that cuz im better than that.....soooo i moved on and moved on to better things in life and im starting school soon to.....its going to be good for me 2...and going back to work soon....go me lol

my lil guy

my baby is getting soooo big i cant believe it...i cant imagine that its been 4months sincei had him it seriously doesnt seem like its been that long....i love my lil man more than anyone in this world....he is my everything....he is now wearing clothes that are 6-9 mo but can fit some 9-12 mo outfits....isnt that crazy!!!! hes going to be a big boy(not fat) just tall and everything.....and on monday he gets his 2nd set of shots :( i hate takin him to go get shots.....one of these times im gonna be in minnesota when he needs to get them and make his daddy take him and have to hear him scream and cry as they poke him with a bunch of needles.....damn nurses and doctors....but he is doing very well and hes sucha happy baby!!! he is always smiling and laughing and he sometimes gets sooo excited that he lets out these squeels that are ear piercing but i love him all the same....he is trying so hard to sit up on his own.....he can roll over and everything a 4mo old can do...hes going to be a very talkative child i can tell now cuz he is always talkin from time he wakes up in morning till he goes to bed...and i love it cuz he sleeps all thru the night.....he can go to bed at 930 and be out till 7 and sometimes if i put in his nuk while i make his bottle and come back in my room hes back alseep and is out till 9.....which helps me out so then i can catch up on lost sleep....just thought id give an update on my lil man