true friends and family

so i went to minnesota as most of you know for a couple weeks for a wedding and for austin to be with his father....well while up there i finally made up my mind about moving up there....well the people i thought would be behind me no matter what arent and backed out on me and my life....my supposadly best friend wont even talk to me anymore because i want to go and be happy and do what is best for me and my son...most friends would support u right? WRONG the only friend i have that supports it is felicia....and i love her for that and out of all my family 2 of my sisters are supportive about it...misty and margaret both wanna see me happy and know that going up there will make me happy....and im telling everybodt if u dont like it i dont need u...u wont support me fine i dont need u either.........im doing what i want in life for once not what everyone wants me to do....and if its starting over with the person i love and starting from friends and gaining a relationship from there so be i dont care i will do whatever it takes.........and most of you dont like it or approve of it and thats your deal not mine...and then i have friends who say i dont care what u do with your life anymore........gee thanks for fucking bein there for me...ill remember that when u need me and i walk away from u.....i dont care who wants me in there life or not anymore....i know who i want in mine and im going to let it happen....they dont want u in there life why let them be in urs.....all i have to do is get money for a uhaul, gas money, and i am on my way there........i have a couple different places i can stay till i get an apt for me and austin.....anyone wanna donate to the "get austin to his daddy foundation"? lol ok i tried least i could do right......well i dont know what else to say on this subject but the fact that im going to do what i want to do regarldless of what people think..........peace out bitches

UGH

soooo for the past week and a half my son had been having really nasty diapers we figured ok its that tooth thats trying to come in that we would see......well then we get hom from our trip and he just starts to projectile puke everywhere....i take him to the doctor yesterday and they dont say much of anything besides give stool sample and to give him just pedialite and water....well i have been doing that since last night....they still havent called about results for sample they wanted i called them and all they say is we will call u tomorrow....he is getting worse...the diapers are worse and he is puking alot more......the only thing he can keep down is the pedialite and water at this point.....i had him in my bed last night and will again tonight and until he gets better.....after he pukes he spits up a bunch of mucus soooo thats why i want him in my bed just in case i dont hear him get sick or i can get to him faster if he starts choking which he has done everytime he gets sick and then it takes him a good while before he can catch his breath.....on a good note the diaper rash he developed from using scented diapers (ooops) and him shitting everywhere literally has cleared up from the prescription that doc gave....its a mix of 3 things.....zinc ointment, maalox and something i cant pronounce sooooo thats good!!! but i just want my lil man to get better i feel sooooo bad that he is sick.....and all he wants is his momma and to be held which is fine i will hold him anytime he needs me!!!

starting off with this

there are a very select few people that i can and will tolerate in my life.....besides my sister, bro in law, my son, mike(austins daddy) and his family other than that i dont really let a whole lot of people into my life....i have a hard time trusting people and letting people into my life.....once i do get to know people i am outgoing and will let them in....until then i shut down and dont let you in.....i love these people in my life very much....they mean the world to me....i love my son with all my heart and wouldnt change a thing about him or take him back for anything.....next on my list is my sister and bro in law...the have helped me soooo much thru everything in my life along with austin....next would be mike...i would do anything for this man regardless of what people think or say...as far as im concerned if you dont like it you can kiss my ass lol and then it would be brian and mel and there kids.....they are amazing and also have helped me put things out there with mike and have me tell him how i feel and now that i have i feel alot better and i thank them for that....anyone else that i really didnt mention doesnt mean i dont need u in my life or dont love you but there are some of you who i would rather kick your ass and tell u to get the hell out of my life but thats a whole other story...ill explain that part in another blog of mine lol.....mel helped me set this up so i have a way of letting things out rather than bottling them up and blowing up on people or maybe its sooo i dont txt her all day venting lol if you dont like anything that i say on here then dont read it and kindly go away :) its as simple as that

MY SON

HE IS SO CUTE!!