<3Brandon<3

wow what can i say...or where should i start.....well first off hes amazing...hes one of the FEW nice guys out there....he is a true gentlemen....he opens doors, pays for everything(not used to either of those), its just simply amazing....he bought my son a high chair which he didnt have to but he did and i love him for that....hes great with my son...my family loves him....he lets my niece and nephews use him as a jungle gym....its sooooo cute....he holds my hand and loves to cuddle...hes not afraid to tell me how he feels...and hes not afraid to stick up for me or afraid of my dad.....lol in fact they get along well....almost to well....he drives an hr each way to see me everyday of every weekend....which with gas prices its not cheap and then on top of that he takes me out and buys my son things.....how awsome is that.....the only and i mean only bad thing i have seen or found is the whole him havin to deploy oct 2nd.....im not sure how i am going to handle this but all my friends just keep tellin me to stay busy and the time will fly....i hope they are right and i will get to talk to him on the phone and computer still sooooo that will help me alot and i can let him see how austins growing.....he calls austin his lil buddy....its soooooo cute.....yea i kno what ur thinkin and no he will not replace his dad but i will let him take care of him as if he was his father and if my son chooses to call someone else dad thats on him and i wont stop him.....after all we kno his dad dont do crap for him.....besides tell what STORIES.....anyways back to brandon lol hes already told me when he gets back next year that hes coming back for me and austin and wants to start a life back home(pennsylvania)which is fine with me....and he told me he wanted to keep me forever.....we have mentioned the whole kid and marriage thing.....and he wants one of each soooooo maybe he will think of austin as the boy so i dont have to pop out 2 more lol just one.....and pray its a girl hahahaha and then will talk details on marriage when he gets back.........ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is all happening and i never thought it would...i truely believe that he is the one and hes who i will be with for rest of my life......crazy how u can kno that right away.....but thats all she wrote for now lol

my life, my boyfriend, my soldier, my hero, come home to me as soon as you can so we can be the best and where we want to be....together forever

gotta take the good with the bad

sooooo good news even tho u already kno lol......i have a physical test with goodyear thurs morning....its 4hrs long ICK but my dads friend said most ppl dont even pass the assessment let alone get a chance to take physical and i pretty much have the job....sooooo i will be working at goodyear YAY ME....and i have an amazing boyfriend whos name is brandon.....omg seriously hes gorgeous, hes very sweet, opens all the doors, calls me maam(which i broke him of) cuz that was just wierd for me.....he loves kids...HELLO HUGE PLUS....my family absolutely loves him...dads request is for him to come over for dinner sooooo friday thats what hes doin and we are havin steak lol hey if im gonna fill his belly gotta do it the right way....after all they say best way to win a mans heart is thru his tummy why not with a steak right lol....anyway hes great and im sooooooo happy....and i have not been in a long time....and my son likes him to which is good lol....and i get a suprise friday lol he wont tell me what it is damnit i hate when guys do that.....MEANIES....anyway hes even said if i need anything for austin (if i cant get it) and its within his power to let him kno and he will go out and get it.....WOW crazy right.....what guy does that if its not his kid.....anyway thats all the great news in life.....NOW THE BAD.......soooo my uncle died 24 days ago as u kno was taken away from us by bone cancer.....well im still grieving from that and i wear his powmia braclet that vets wear that my dad let me have.....and well a girl in high school that had down syndrom died saturday from a siezure....only 23yrs old......and she was the biggest sweetheart ever....her wake is 2morrow night and funeral thursday and of course i cant go to funeral as of goodyear test.....and then on top of all of that my cousin calls us today and tells us that he was taking his mom off of life support in an hr........he went to her house yesterday and she wouldnt answer him at the door or anything he had to break in and find his mother....she had a massive heart attack, a severe stroke, and that led to her havin a brain anurism......there was no way she would ever make it so they decided to take her off the life support....he called us back at 630 our time and had told us she had passed away 40mins prior to the call.......my uncle who wanted to meet austin soooo bad was not able to but my aunt was so she can tell him all about him and they both can watch over austin now......and in the words of my cousin "i guess she really wanted to be with her hunny" and this is why if i ever get married id have to die first.............rip uncle robo, wendi sue cushing, and aunt jeannette........i love you all.....

sometimes in life u gotta take the good with the bad...........or as they say the good, the bad, and the ugly

sick and job

soooo my son wouldnt quit screamin saturday thru sunday morning.....i gave him tylenol for fever and dymatap cuz he seemed to be gettin a cold.....WRONG when i took him to er finally sunday morning cuz i COULD NOT listen to the screaming anymore....come to find out he had an ear infection..........GREAT....hopefully its NOT one of many....so i got him medicine and he has to take it every 8 hrs for 14days.....no more screaming yay....well then i was gettin sick and my ear had been botherin me for couple weeks but ignored it...yea well i got an ear infection to...funny thing its in same ear as austin lol....and i have sinus infection and bronchitus on top of it....YAY not....it sucks....austin seems to be gettin better which is great as for me ...........not so much......but today i took an assessment test for the topeka goodyear plant....i had worked there before during strike (which is how i met austins father) well they have been advertising forever that they need help so i applied and they told me hey come in and take this test....so i did....took 2 hrs on the computer......and then after that i will get an over the phone interview and then hair drug test which they wont find shit cuz ive never done a drug in my life lol.....sooooo yea and they are startin ppl off at 13.42 instead of 13.00 an hr which is great!!!!!! i cant wait to go to work and smell like rubber and get down and dirty......first this week gotta get better, and go on my dates with brandon(yes he wants more than one lol) and then hopefully work on monday!!!!